happy 21st birthday Ollie. This is the 3rd birthday without you, this blows my mind because its gone so fucking fast. Id give anything to have an embarrassing, drama filled drunken evening with you tonight, Miss you bud x x x x x
I only ever post on here when im feeling like shit and tonight im feeling like shit. Everything’s going so well for me at the moment and yet I feel so unfulfilled. I feel as though everything I want is so out of reach and im struggling with so many aspects of myself. I need to get away and explore new things, meet new people and not be in a bubble which surrounds me and makes me feel like I need to be something and impress people that dont even remotely care.
feel really lonely and stressed.
Really feeling low the past few weeks. Just want flowers, gin and girls night.
its always so hard seeing the same camp site, driving the same route and spending the weekend trying not to be too overwhelmed by what happened. It was harder this year being without as many people who really got it. Its important to be as happy as possible and make good memories, and its important to celebrate and not stop doing things I love because they’re tainted.
rest in peace Ollie, 2 years has flown by. x